With immense creativity, the Lord drew me in from far away and, by a road with many steps along the way, led me to my definitive home, that of the Missionary Sisters.
I was born in Essen, Germany. I am grateful to my parents whose path was the first testimony of faith for me. Born in Poland, but then having emigrated to Germany, which was a different environment and in certain ways very difficult, they sought hard to find a place where they could live their faith. Among all of these, two were particularly important for me.
The first was Carlsberg, where we were part of the Movement, Light and Life, which puts a strong emphasis on the beauty of the liturgy and on meditation and the sharing of the word of God. I experienced these aspects in the extremely beautiful Pasqual Triduum celebrations that we lived together with the consecrated persons and the other families, but also in the habit of reading the Gospel of the day every morning before going to school.
The second place was Wisełka, and, more precisely, the Institute of the Holy Family, a splendid retreat house for families, on the Baltic Sea. Between adventurous hikes in the woods and on the lakes, daily Mass and adoration, I participated in a very rich Christian life.
These moments of strong companionship reawoke in me the desire to form one day a holy, numerous and generous family.
This companionship was lacking in my day-to-day life and my classmates did not have faith. It was my family that safeguarded my relationship with God through prayer together and in the sacraments. Before the desperation of a friend, I understood that the Lord was calling me to testify to the hope that I had encountered.
Day after day, I finally began to exit from myself and to give of myself.
When I was twenty, prompted by a missionary joy, I participated in an initiative of evangelization at a music festival in Poland. Timidly I follow my Polish friends and their certainty that Jesus could truly be interesting to all! After those days, an intense and intimate dialogue with the Lord continued, until an idea emerged on my horizon that He was calling me to something different from what I had always imagined. This new perspective, however, disturbed me; it was too vertiginous!
This resistance was overcome thanks to an encounter with the Movement of Communion and Liberation in Freiburg in Brisgovia, where I was studying dentistry, and with the priests of the Fraternity of St. Charles. Through this encounter, my life began to flourish. The novelties were: a daily friendship centered on the search for Destiny; a beautiful and natural following of an authoritative guide; the experiential approach to the faith and the adventure of judging everything. Day after day, these novelties formed me and, departing from a mentality that was still a bit individualistic, I finally exited from myself: I began to give of myself in charitable work, to sing at Mass, to open my home to others.
In this path, the calling of the Lord found in me a new space. I observed myself in action and was discovering inscribed in my heart the desire for a total and exclusive dedication to Christ. It was not easy for me to admit this with sincerity before myself, until, with the other newly graduated folks of CL, together with Fr. Gianluca Carlina, we thought about how we could serve the Church in this new phase of our life. In this perspective of laboring for the Kingdom of heaven, I experienced a definitive explosion of the joy of giving everything. Completely amazed by this change, I was unable any longer to contain the fascination for the Fraternity and the passion for the world that I had seen in them, which for me meant going to Italy to enter the Missionary Sisters of St. Charles.
